woooohhhooooo!!!!

i just finished my last exam for this semester!! bye fall! hello winter!

i dunno how i did for my 1st sem here! i don't wanna know! i just wanna enjoy the holiday season.. though i know i can't really be happy.. totally.. that's impossible..

but knowing that i have in my life the people i love.. though some are far from me.. that makes it close to that..

yey!!! now.. i'd have to think what im going to do with my time.. hehe..

by Yeng Constantino and Rj Jimenez

There will be no ordinary days for you
If there is someone who cares like I do
You got no reason to be sad anymore
I’m always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

{bridge}
You don’t have to search no more
‘cause I am someone who will love you for sure

[cho:]
So if we fall in love
Maybe we’ll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you will be a better place

You can watch that movies in a different light
So I’ll be right there beside you
Hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight)
Has from never feel so cold and empty again
‘cause I will keep on holding on
And won’t let go (never let you go)

{bridge}
[cho:]

Feels so good when you’re around
One smile from you (one smile from you)
Make my days feel so bright

[cho]



note: a lot of people are asking for the lyrics of this song.. so i made a copy of it.. i listened to the song itself and not just copied the lyrics from a site.. you'll find that it's more accurate than those posted by others..

a surprise made by my sister for me!

- Get Your Own

-something i recovered from my very first blog..

first posted last May 8, 2006... wow... nakakatawa.. ang labo ng sinulat ko..-

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hay..

everything between us happened so fast.. we both didn't see it coming.. aminado kami na ang bilis ng mga pangyayari.. but we are happy.. i know i am and i know he is.. i can feel it.. everyone around us can see it..

we both know na aalis ako.. at first.. we were both hesitant to risk.. he was hesitant..cz he knw na aalis ako.. and ako rin.. i was afraid.. cz i have loved before but just got hurt..i said to myself na ayoko munang umibig.. tinanim ko sa isip ko na i am leaving.. someone was even courting me that time.. but kahit everyday niya pinapakita sakin how much he loves me.. hnd pa rin umubra.. hnd niya nakuha puso ko.. i felt ok.. very ordinary.. someone loves me pero d ko masuklian yung love that he was very willing to give me.. honestly, i felt dry.. i felt ang ordinary ng mga araw ko..

but one day.. napaka unexpected.. he entered my life.. hnd ko pa nga xa kilala pero binati nya ako.. sabi niya "hi crush!" woah!!!!!! i didn't expect that.. his friends didn't... (his friends and isang common friend namin ang naging witness namin..sa lahat..hehehe) and xa din.. he didn't expect na he'd admit to me dat time na crush niya ako.. naging constant ang communication namin.. i thought he would be just like any ordinary guy that came into my life..na ngpakita ng interes..but d ko kayang mahalin in return..pero hnd..he started to become one of my reasons for waking up each day..kahit wla xa sa tabi ko he could me make laugh when no one else could..my days started to become incomplete pag d ko xa nakikita..once, akala ko he would break what he said to me..naiyak ako..hnd ko alam why..siguro kac..mahal ko na xa nun..i did so many stupid things na i didn't expect na magagawa ko..all for him..grabe..foooooooooooorward.....

dey said..laging depende sa tao..love is a decision..and i decided to risk..to love him..i dnt knw why him..but i do know..dat i love him..and im willing to do everything just to see him again..just to be with him again..

i admit.. before.. at some point.. i got scared.. so scared to get hurt.. but he did and said some things that made me realize.. shocks! he does love me so much..

i know people think im still too young to know..i know we just met..we know we just met..we know that things happened so fast..but time doesn't matter..we both felt it..

im willing to fly half around the world.. that far from him.. cause i know that he is gonna wait.. i know he will be there when i get back.. i know that he is gonna follow me.. sounds crazy right? hehehe.. it does.. it does sound silly.. two lovers.. each halfway arnd the world.. so hopeful that someday they'll find each other back in each other's arms.. grabe..

i dont know if all the people will understand.. but i know.. everyone has loved..

I love you
I don't know what else to say
Cuz I long for you more each day
I need you
I want to feel your embrace
And have a chance to touch your face

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Now I call you my own
Things will never be the same

How could I’ve known
You will hold me close so tenderly
Even though I’m alone
I can feel your arms enfold in me
And that love, became mine in just one night
When you held me tight
Oooh.. it felt so right

I feel you
You’re always here in my heart
Its where reflection since we fall apart

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Can’t go on, on my own
Wishin’ that you would stay

How could I’ve known
You will hold me close so tenderly
Even though I’m alone
I can feel your arms enfold in me
And that love, became mine in just one night
When you held me tight
Oooh.. it felt so right

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Can’t go on, on my own
Wishin’ that you would stay
Tell me that you would stay... ey

How could I’ve know (how could I’ve known… ohh)
(Ooh)You will hold me close so tenderly (oohh)
(Ooh)Even though I’m alone
I can feel your arms enfold in me (your arms enfold me)
And that love, became mine in just one night
When you held me tight
Oooh.. it felt so right
Felt so right…
Hmmm… felt so right.

***after listening to this song over and over again.. i thought..

i've never had any problems trusting and having faith in anybody.. but giving you those is one of the hardest things i've ever done.. and leaving you is the hardest decision i've ever made.. having those, together with your love and promise, are my only weapons in this strange land.. ***

today.. is my brother's birthday and also the feast of immaculate concepcion.. and like the month of september, i also have a lot of friends celebrating their birthdays this month..

it's really late.. and i'm kinda tired of writing.. so i might just have to write in phrases instead of paragraphs.. am i still making sense? uhhh.. i hate this.. this is what it feels like when you're so exhausted and sad..

it's just so funny how we all get sooooooo sad over matters.. like the beauty around us aren't enough to make us feel thankful.. yet it only takes one small thing to make us happy and get rid of all those sadness..

a family is and will always be a family.. no matter how tough the road may seem they will always be there to help you overcome the obstacles you are facing and are still about to face.. no matter how messed up the day may be.. at the end of it, you still have your family waiting for you at home ready to cheer you up!

celebrating once birthday doesn't have to be that costly or grandeur.. having your family with you is more than enough..

being a kid is a gift.. let us not take that away from children and push them to grow up too fast.. because one can only be a child once but, for the rest of his life, he can grow up everyday and be more mature as time flies.. life for them is so simple yet full of love and happiness.. and grown-ups must know to learn from them..

after a really long and busy weekend..

after a day full of pressure and unexplainable emotions. after all the rounds of impromptu speeches. the day of corporate look!

after all the shopping. the back and forth journey to the fitting room. the make up. the smiles. the soreness of wearing high heels all day.

im back to my regular mondays. but this time i rode the bus to school. the very first monday i chose to take the bus and i made it to the stop before the bus even came.

i had my exam in anthropology and just studied today. few hours before the exam and i had to read two whole books! good thing luck was at my side that time. i think the exam wasn't that bad. better than what i had expected.

one down. 1 million more research papers to go! how am i going to finish all of them when instead of working on them i'm here encoding this. trying to gradually put into words my emotions and thoughts.

emotions? i think i might have to set it aside for now and just take some dosage of emo songs. sounds crazy? sounds like i'm making it worse? well, things can't get any worst. i just don't want it to end. i hate this feeling!

thoughts:
- one has to learn first how to be a member before he jumps to be a leader.

- a leader still has a lot to learn, even from his own members.

- being the leader may not always be the best way to organize things.

- in every situation, there will always be someone who opposes.

- the devil's advocate sure does have some issues.

- being sweet and caring may sometimes be unreciprocated.

- sometimes it's better to let things take their course.


i got a lot of things to say. but i don't wanna put them into words anymore. because it'll just hurt even more.
- seeing and being able to read the pain and the cause just scars.

i worry:

where is this fate leading me? where is this emotion bringing us? is it here to guide us? or is it here to lead us to a pit to just fall? will you fall with me? or are you gonna hang unto something and just let me go to break?

is this magic just a fantasy from the very beginning? or does everything still have a spark of hope left in it?

everything i am experiencing and achieving now cannot and can never compensate for my longing.. longing to be with the person i once just hoped to come and be a reality..